Book Worm

Book Worm 

Susan Clarkson

In the 1950s, six of us lived in a back-to-back house in Bradford. We were four adults and two children. My mum, my eleven year old  sister and myself, aged five, had gone to live with our auntie and two uncles not long after the death of my dad.

There were always books around the house, mainly library books, and books which had been passed on to various members of the family by other relatives or friends.   One such relative was Auntie Anne, who was actually a member of a book club and so she used to pass on books she had read onto my Auntie May, my mum’s sister with whom we lived, who was a keen reader. 

One such book was the newly translated English edition of “Doctor Zhivago”. This novel by Boris Pasternak, had been banned in the Soviet Union and had been translated, first into Italian and then into English.  It received a great response in Europe and the U.S.

I was in my early teens when this book first appeared in our house. I was already an enthusiastic reader but there was a great deal in the novel that I didn’t understand.  However, it woke in me a love for the idea of Russia and all things Russian. The novel opened up for me not only this mysterious and secret land but also an awareness that very often people who keep their independence of thought and action, as did Yuri Zhivago, generally suffer for it.

Around the same time we acquired a television and I can remember watching a series of Shakespeares history plays,, starting with “Richard II” and ending with “Richard III”. This project has been repeated several times since on TV but I do remember very vividly this first one in black and white which was called “An Age of Kings”. I certainly understood very little of Shakespeare’s poetry but I was fascinated by the stories and by listening to the language. 

As a result, one day, I found myself near a secondhand bookstall in Kirkgate Market.  I picked up and put down several books until I came across a heavy, dark blue  volume, “The Complete Works of William Shakespeare.’ It was quite dogeared and a bit grubby but I spent my pocket money on it – two shillings and sixpence – and took it home. To everyone else it just looked like a tatty old book but to me it was wonderful. I was able to read some of the speeches that I’d heard on the television production and began to understand them a little more. I also delved into some of the other place, the ones I had heard of, “Romeo and Juliet”, for example, and “Hamlet”.

Before discovering Pasternak and Shakespeare, Auntie May had taken me to my first library, Manningham Library on Carlisle Road. I thought it was absolutely wonderful, not just the books but also the setting which was quite ornate and light.  I loved walking around the brightly coloured shelves of books in the children’s section, knowing I could choose one to take home.  

I joined Manningham Library as a junior reader but later on progressed to the Bradford Lending Library in Darley Street.

This library was opened in 1878, having moved from the original library on Tyrell Street which was opened in 1872. As far as I can recall, there was a big heavy door leading into the library from Darley Street.  I have a feeling that this was the only frontage because as soon as you went through the door, you were in a dimly lit hallway with a large staircase in front of you. Usually, I went to the lending library on the first floor to search the shelves for my next book.   

I recently found a photograph, on a local history website, of the lending library in Darley Street. It was packed with people standing in between the huge bookcases choosing their books.. The photo was taken in 1962 so perhaps I was one of the readers!

At that time all the books were hardback books and many of the older ones were beautifully bound, thanks to the skills of the librarians. By the time I started to use the library newer books retained their original dust covers which were protected by plastic so the shelves were a combination of dark book spines, with gold lettering and much more colourful volumes. The light came in from  beautiful arched windows, a bit like the ones we can still see on the Wool Exchange, but there were also lamps hanging from the ceiling. I loved being in that building, searching for, finding, and always leaving it with a new treasure.

 Wherever I moved to a new town or city, I always found the nearest library and joined.  As well as remembering particular libraries, I find that I call to mind certain books which I found, borrowed and read. For example, it was in the library at Sittingbourne, a busy town in Kent, that I first found the novels of Melvin Bragg. This was in the 1970s, and he had only written two or three books but I really enjoyed these stories which were a mixture of social history and an evocation of place, in Bragg’s case, Cumbria. I still read a Lord Bragg novel, now and again.

After Sittingbourne, I moved to the mining village of Wath upon Dearne in South Yorkshire. In the cosy, welcoming library, next to the baker’s, I found a huge scholarly  volume in defence of Richard III, and I date from that time my devotion to this much maligned monarch.  I even started to write a story about Richard as a child in Middleham, but nothing came of it.

In Oxford, I joined the local public library.  My sight was failing rapidly and I depended on audiobooks and large print books. I ordered a large print version of “War and Peace”. This comprised seven large volumes which were kept in the store, and when I went to  collect them from the library, there was great amusement among the library staff. Occasionally I used to put one of these huge volumes in my bag and go and sit on a bench in Christchurch Meadow, on the bank of the Thames, and lose myself in the lives of Natasha, Pierre, Andrei, Maria and Nikolai. 

While living in Oxford I was able to use the  Bodleian Library.  A good friend worked in the Disability and Inclusion office at the University and often asked me to join teams looking at disability issues in the different buildings and colleges, especially issues those connected to visual impairment. One of the perks of this consultation work was access to the Bodleian and a readers’ ticket. 

Technology for the use of visually impaired people was in transition at that time, around 2006, and the library possessed a huge piece of equipment which readers with limited sight could use in order to read books.  The text to be read was placed underneath a light and on a large screen it appeared magnified several times.  I was allowed to use this reader and to be perfectly honest I’m not sure how many other people did.  At the time I was doing a course on Dickens at the Oxford Department for Continuing Education and so I was able to do research in the library, accessing books and using this extremely heavy and cummbersome machine.

All I had to do was to call the library and book a slot and when I arrived the reader was set up  waiting for me. The staff were friendly, accommodating and fascinated by the machine.

It gave me a great thrill to walk through the imposing quadrangle leading to the main entrance, Duke Humphry’s library in front of me. The buildings in the quod glowed with a rich honey colour. On entering the library I was able to use my card at the turnstile climb the ancient wooden staircase to the first floor and then enter the calm and brightness of the reading room, finding my special desk.  Before beginning reading, I would look out of the large windows overlooking the spectacular Ratcliffe Camera and fantasise that I really was a student at the University of Oxford.

One thing I was never called upon to do was to take the solemn undertaking required by all uses of the library. It would have been fun to do that.  I still enjoy reading the text to myself:

“I hereby undertake not to remove from the Library, nor to mark, deface, or injure in any way, any volume, document or other object belonging to it or in its custody; not to bring into the Library, or kindle therein, any fire or flame, and not to smoke in the Library; and I promise to obey all rules of the Library.”

Creative Writing

I have been taking part in creative writing classes since last summer. They take place in the library in the centre of Bradford. I have also joined a small online writing group which meets on Wednesday evenings. I am enjoying writing again and to my great surprise I have even attempted some poems. My intention is to post some of this writing here on my blog and possibly also on Facebook. The story called the Piccadilly line is one of my first attempts. My feeling and also the feeling of others in the group is that memoir is the way I should go and I’m now going to put on a memoir about reading

The Piccadilly Line

The Piccadilly Line

Julia let herself out of the front door of her block of flats into the crisp, sunlit air of Islington. She walked  along Mckenzie Road, admiring as usual the prettiness of Paradise Park on the left. She turned to the right and reached the main road. The traffic was already heavy although it was only 7:30 am. Using the pelican crossing, she headed towards Caledonian Road tube station. Tapping her Oyster card, she joined the growing throng waiting for the lift to take them underground.

The westbound platform was already heaving but she knew that if she positioned herself at a certain point she would get a seat. Moving carefully along platform she reached her goal. Checking the indicator she noted that fortunately the train she needed, the one going to Heathrow, was the first one. The train approached, slowing down. The doors opened and she stepped inside turning to the left and taking the seat vacated by a young woman. She breathed a sigh of relief.  As this was a train going to Heathrow, very soon it would be full of people with travel baggage of various shapes and sizes cluttering the carriage.

She remembered the times she had taken this journey to Heathrow in the days when she travelled abroad for work and for holidays.  Nowadays she stayed in Britain although she did have plans to travel in Europe by train – someday.

The train trundles towards King’s Cross where many more passengers entered the carriage. Julia was used to travelling on the underground and it didn’t bother her that they were all packed in. She sat back and reflected on how often over the years  she had travelled on the Piccadilly Line.

She knew the stations by heart and as her ultimate destination was Osterley, she began to reflect on the parts of her life punctuated by the various stops on the Piccadilly Line.

As the train made its way through central London, Julia allowed her mind to pick up fleeting memories at each of the familiar stations. Meeting Friends in the Italian café in Russell Square during lunch hours when she had worked at the British museum. Opera at Covent Garden, The to visit Leicester Square, leisurely walks through Green Park and Saint Jameses Park.  

However, she found that her memories were beginning to focus on the eventual destination of a journey, Osterley, and on Hounslow Central. It was with thoughts this latter station that she found the memories and emotions were the most vivid and painful.

Three years earlier she had been living in Oxford in a small faith based community which gave hospitality to five asylum seekers. One of the young men, Nazar, had to go to Eaton House, the immigration reporting centre in Hounslow. She had agreed to accompany him as it was his first reporting session since leaving detention.  

They caught the bright blue and red Oxford Tube bus which ran frequently between Oxford and London, leaving it at Hillingdon, a station on the Piccadilly line. They had to change at Acton Town and then catch the train for Hounslow. After leaving the train they joined a large group of people waiting for the bus to go to Eaton House. Nazarr was actually chatting to a couple of other Afghan men and it was obvious that the bus had many people whose destination was the IRC.

It was a bright sunny day and people were queueing up to go in to the unattractive and functional building. Julia asked the guard if she could accompany Nazar as he was feeling a little nervous but the guard refused, saying that it was for her own safety not to allow her into the building just in case something “kicked off”.

Naza grinned nervously at her and then joined the queue which was moving quite swiftly. Julia stood outside with those waiting to enter, admiring some of the brightly coloured clothes that some of the women were wearing. 

Time passed.

She gradually became anxious and then really worried when she realised that people who had gone in after Nazar were now coming out again. She approached the guard at the door and asked where Nazar was.

“I don’t think he’ll be coming back with you so you’d best go home.”

“What do you mean? I really need to speak to someone to find out what’s going on.”

Fortunately the guard said, “Wait here.” 

After about 20 minutes an immigration officer came out and took her to one side, explaining that Nazar would not be leaving with her but would be taken to an Immigration Removal Centre near Heathrow Airport. He gave her the name of the centre -Colnbrooke – and a phone number so that she could call for information.

Sitting on the Piccadilly line train three years later she remembered how she had set off on the journey back to Oxford with a sinking heart and an overwhelming sense of powerlessness.

Even after three years she remembered the painful experiences of visiting Nazar in Colnbrooke.  No need for the Piccadilly Line now; she took the green and yellow bus which ran between Oxford and Heathrow and then caught a local bus to the large forbidding IRC. Nazar, just seventeen, had often wept and because there was a language barrier which neither of them could breach, all she could do was sit holding his hand or with her arm around him. It was a massive wrench to leave him each time she visited and she once she wept  loudly and openly after she had left him, feeling again the powerlessness but also rage.

As the train slowed down approaching Osterley, Julia remembered that Naz story, as far as the Oxford community was concerned, had a strange and yet unbelievably helpful ending. He had been released from the IRC but was told he would have to be attacked taking his chance he simply disappeared she assumed he went underground and she did receive a couple of short phone calls from him saying he was okay. He was a very resourceful young man and she didn’t doubt that somehow or he would survive. Watt remained was the mixture of happy memories of him and the painful remembrance of his tears.

Leaving the tube station Julia set off to walk the short distance to the small retreat centre where she was to meet her spiritual director.  Centre was not very big but was surrounded by pretty gardens and many trees These monthly visits where a source of peace and refreshment to her in her busy life but as she reflected on her own comfortable life, she was left with the question why people who didn’t deserve it, like Nazar and countless others, were given a difficult path to tread.

As if in queue, an aeroplane pled the sky noisily overhead as it left Heathrow. She wondered as she dead if that plane was carrying refugees away from the country which they had thought to be safe and welcoming